Hollywood actor Alec Baldwin is asking the world why it couldn’t have been him after the fatal rust shooting took place.

The star has opened up on a personal note about how he’s forced to live with the guilt of unintentional murder from the sets of the film Rust.

Sources from local media outlets shared how the star is happier and at peace when he sleeps at night so he does not have to face the world and the constant reminders that he gets related to the tragedy of killing cinematographer Halyna Hutchins.

The actor was seen reflecting on the death that arose in 2021 during the February 23 premiere of the latest TLC reality show The Baldwins.

In that episode, Alec and his wife Hilaria were seen opening up about the impact of the ordeal, alongside the legal drama that arose afterward, and how it screwed up his mental health.

The star says that all of this has been so surreal for him. Speaking to his wife, he mentioned how he cannot believe that they’re all going through this right now.

He also shared how much pain he constantly feels all of the time. “I think to myself I am going to try my best to get through it but then it just keeps on getting harder’- he stated in an emotional manner.