A veteran New Jersey air traffic controller has just revealed how he had no option but to scribble handwritten flight details in a notebook amid fears his radar equipment would go dark as he was trying to avoid some nose-to-nose midair collisions.

Jonathan Stewart says he’s been working at the Philadelphia facility that oversees airspace near the troubled Newark Liberty International Airport on May 4.

He boldly declared that he does not wish to be responsible for killing 400 individuals, and also went on to reveal during his lengthy interview how it was all just a frightening ordeal that resulted in him taking stress leave.

Stewart said he took the dramatic step of writing down callsigns for the two planes, given that radar systems at the facility failed just a few days back.

They wreaked havoc at the major international hub and caused serious cancellations on a massive scale. The midair saga involved a business jet that had just taken off from the Morristown Airport and a small jet that was coming from nearby Teterboro Airport.

Stewart, who happens to be a supervisor at the facility, mentioned how he would be making $450,000 this year, declared how the job is so stressful as he’s seen two jets speeding directly toward one another on the radar scope at the same altitude, and they were seconds away from colliding. He’s raised the alarm with authorities, who are doing everything to try and avoid mishaps in this area.