“And I really don’t know what’s next for me.
I would like to experience me being who I really am, for the first time, privately. To feel a peace that I have been, until now, only half feeling. I can now leave this decade behind. Where the past belongs. Hopefully no more “what happened to Duffy questions”, now you know … and I am free.”
By far, the most shocking explanation and an answer for which one could have expected for a decade-long hiatus, British R&B singer Duffy explained on her Instagram account hours ago of the reasons behind her disappearance when she was hailed as the new queen of Britpop with Amy Winehouse and Adele: A month-long kidnapping and brutal rape.
In her online post, which she has since archived and made not available for further media queries, she started her horrendous account from the ordeal that started at her birthday party 10 years ago, a kidnapping by an unnamed figure:
“It was my birthday, I was drugged at a restaurant, I was drugged then for four weeks and travelled to a foreign country.I can’t remember getting on the plane and came round in the back of a travelling vehicle. I was put into a hotel room and the perpetrator returned and raped me.
I remember the pain and trying to stay conscious in the room after it happened.I was stuck with him for another day, he didn’t look at me, I was to walk behind him, I was somewhat conscious and withdrawn. I could have been disposed of by him. ”
“I contemplated running away to the neighbouring city or town, as he slept, but had no cash and I was afraid he would call the police on me, for running away, and maybe they would track me down as a missing person.I do not know how I had the strength to endure those days, I did feel the presence of something that helped me stay alive.
I flew back with him, I stayed calm and as normal as someone could in a situation like that, and when I got home, I sat, dazed, like a zombie.I knew my life was in immediate danger, he made veiled confessions of wanting to kill me. With what little strength I had, my instinct was to then run, to run and find somewhere to live that he could not find.
“The perpetrator drugged me in my own home in the four weeks, I do not know if he raped me there during that time, I only remember coming round in the car in the foreign country and the escape that would happen by me fleeing in the days following that. I do not know why I was not drugged overseas; it leads me to think I was given a class A drug and he could not travel with it.”
“After it happened, someone I knew came to my house and saw me on my balcony staring into space, wrapped in a blanket. I cannot remember getting home. The person said I was yellow in colour and I was like a dead person. They were obviously frightened but did not want to interfere, they had never seen anything like it.”
She, acknowledging the whole atmosphere Britain and the world is facing through the quarantined era, made sure that her significant reveal would turn to be a motif for recover, rehabilitation, justice and above all, healing. She wants her message and the account she gave to imbue other rape victims and the sexually abused to have confidence in their existence, and be a strong soul against all odds:
“There is also a real science to being grateful. Research shows that gratitude can heal your body, mind, and those you are grateful to. So, by being thankful, for what you do have, and the selfless acts of others during this time, lifts you and them.”
“And of talking of community and human thoughtfulness, some of you really helped me in real time when you wrote comments beneath the original statement I wrote. You put “do not be afraid to run for cover”, another said “breathe, just breathe” as I was worried about what I had done, when it went so quickly to the news, as I could not sleep some nights.”
She ends the reveal by writing: “One of you wrote “I feel you will always be protected from here” I agreed, I knew what you meant. I faced my greatest life lesson to speak.”
Many have flocked to her Instagram account, to hope for Duffy’s strength, and success in whatever she does and chooses to do in the future. She has declined to comment or give an official subsequent response further.
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